D a r e T o B e S t u p i d . . .

guhh... things are Soooooo stressful right now getting ready for the show.


here's one of the posters RIT made for it.

guess who! :)


if you can come, COME!
opening night FRIDAY 21st! :)

today was a good day.

i got to see mary!!!
and we had lunch at breuggers and talked muchly so
(it really is silly we're only 15 mins away from each other at school and don't see each other NEARLY enough)
THIS WILL CHANGE!! :)

and then i went shopping.
i got ALL of Zack's xmas presents done.
and a few others.

I AM SO ON TOP OF THINGS
(mostly b/c RIT SUCKS and i wont be home until a day before xmas eve ...DUHRRR)

....then i called leanne, and she was actually home
so i got to see her shortly, and we went to the libary and old navy.


things are good.
i love my boy
and he will be spending turkey day w/ us.


oh and i saw my matty brother on Monday and it was good
MUCH chinese food at the food court and shopping :)
SPLENDID.


OHH!!! and yesterday we got my new bed, and it is good and NOT BROKEN
and me and zack went to Jcpenney and zack got himself a half zip sweater, a polo shirt, a pair of cords, and khakis.

GO ZACK CLOTHES YAY!!


okay i am done.
i have to pee.
duh.
byes.


Happy Thanksgiving Alls.


(please pray that i don't die on Black Friday out of sleep deprivation..or from getting trampled)

so basically i've been doing a lot of arting.

doing pretty well here at RIT.

a few downer days, but for the most part okay.
...but still quite angry.


...i hold grudges.



i've had a few art days w/ cate and she's come over to paint w/ me at my apartment.
and i'd say they were pretty productive.

today im doing laundry n cleaning and MORE PAINTING

and i'll be painting until forever.
i've finally gotten into a painting mood, after a 5 week FUNK pretty much.

so time to HAUL ASS.



so, next weekend.
mommy daddy and zacky shall be hopefully visiting me for the weekend so i am full of eager happiness.

dum dum dum THEEND.


...cate draws nakie boys :-P

so i tried driving to target tonite.
where traffic all across the road was at a complete hault.

why???

a flock of geese were wandering on the road. debating which direction to cross.
crossing a lil, then walking and wandering around.
then finally crossing the street in a straight line.
....about 12 of them.

it was pretty rediculous to see.
(for the 2nd time this year already!)

soo....

i have bangs now.
real bangy bangs.

today i was VERY domestic and made scalloped potatoes and turkey-ham for dinner
and it was delicious and took a while to make, but now i have leftovers that will
last AT LEAST 2 more meals.

i have to start hauling ass, even though school pretty much just started.
but i need at least 5 paintings down before turkey break.
SO OY!!

...time to shower.
...and read up on some painting techniques.

...tomorrow....SKETCH AND START PAINTING! and laundry..UGH.

okay
im beyond depressed
and pissed off.

zack got suspended from RIT.

im not mad at him (entirely)

but im FURIOUS at his parents.
i want to punch them and RIT in the face.

zack is not allowed to stay in Rochester for the year w/ me
he will be in albany.

i transfered to RIT for him.

i have no friends at rit, pretty much.
no family.
no boyfriend.

he cant just go w/ me to ROCH, b/c his parents would cut him off.

LONG DISTANCE SUCKS ASS.
im going to be crying every night...prolly everyday.

im sick of long distance.
i dont want to do it, but i love him.

my heart has never hurt so badly.


i still don't know my way around campus.

i'm going to be awfully lonely.

im scared as all hell.

i already have enough depression and anxiety, and i dont need anything else to worry about.
THANKS, thanks alot.
i hate you mr and mrs case.
im not going to your house ever again.
not for a long long time,
i do not want to see you.

oh, and im not allowed to drive alone,
so i have no idea how im going to get home when i need to.

FUCK. *cries* FUCK

so last night was very very scary for me.

so i go to bed at 12, and then POP right up from bed @ 1ish.
my heart was beating wicked fast. so incredibly fast...ABNORMALLY fast.
and i could not catch my breath, or breathe AT ALL
i tried coughing and coughing but i couldn't get any air.
i just tried to calm down to get my heart to slow. and it finally did enough for me to breathe.
it was soo scary.
i tried laying back down to sleep, but my heart would speed up, so i just tried to sit in the living room

luckily, mom somehow did not get up, because surely she'd freak out.

tried calling zack, but his cellfone must've died. :(
only one awake or online was rachael. so i got to talk to her for a bit.
and i calmed down
and by 2 i was in bed, and i kept the light on while i slept, and that helped.

gahhh. so i have NO IDEA what happened to me.


TODAY i had to go the dentist.
the first lady person dentist person said my teeth were perfect. and she had barely any cleaning to do.
and was impressed w/ my obsessive compulsive floshing abilities.
the only thing that sucked was that i had to wait 20 mins for the other dentist to check my teeth.
and then his checking was also only a minute or so.
GUH. but yay for my teeth and their awesomeness.


...i went to breugger
i got some bagels.

poppyseed bagel w/ honey walnut cream cheese = YUMMMMM! kimmy's #1 fav.








this is my first long entry in many long times.




yes.


camp starts monday
camp meeting friday. YAY!
i can't wait to work.

"mary acts not like a little girl, she acts like a woman, other kids cut meat so stupid, but not her. she's very mature for her age."
-my mom.


hahaha

"i've got to see a doctor
i've got to see a doctor
cause there's something wrong with me
what can it be?
what can it be?
i know it isn't indigestion
it isn't indigestion
it's just my poor old brain
it feels so queer
since you are near, dear
ever since you told me that you loved me
IM A NUT!
IM A NUT!"


-guh, that's the truth. and i <3 tiny tim.

welp. tonight i got my first migraine. hurt like hell
all the way down my neck. and hurt to breathe and seee.
and UGH.
HELL.

better now though.
which is good.


..hmm i was gunna type more.
but im actually getting sleepy, so im going to bed before it goes away.

so unlike everyone else that is done w/ school

i still have classes this week

and next week is finals

i'll be home the 26th.


...oy. sooo stressin out until forever.


but my dad called me today
and told me my mom really needs another dog.
she's been really lonely n sad n stuff.

so apparently we're getting another dog when i get home.
or looking for one rather.

...too soon?..yes.
but i have no choice in the matter, really.

..and dad already buried cooper's ashes in the backyard
so yeah :(


uhm back to art.
ugh

so i went home this past friday for the weekend.
thought i could bring some stuff back home, relax, and study for bach.

came home to find out cooper was put to sleep on thursday.
he would've been 13 this may.
apparently he had trouble walking and would trip constantly, and couldn't hold in his bodily stuffs,
and was getting senile.

mom and dad took him to the doggy hospital, and they had ivs in my coopie,
and they said his gums were all pale, and that he was really suffering, and there was nothing
anyone could do.

he had to be put to sleep :(

...they are getting him cremated, maybe putting him in an urn, maybe spread his ashes outsides.
im not sure how i feel about this.

but basically. i was balling all weekend, couldn't study or concentrate,
and i really am sad that i was here this year.
and barely got to see my cooper.
i really miss him.
it really suck, and im crying all the time.

im really nervous about the summer, b/c ive never been alone since we've got him in 4th grade.

i dont want to be all alone i dont think i can take it.

i keep crying. it sucks.

im going to fail my test today cuz i couldn't study.

i can barely handle myself.

and what makes me even more sad is that i can't find my pictures of him
and my movies. i need to hunt for them
but there's no time.

it sucks so badly.
i couldn't stand to be at home.

and it makes me want to be sick.

i love him soo much.

okay, now i'm crying.


uhm happy somewhat note, i got placed in UC for next year's housing.
hopefully they wont move me.

basically it's an apartment type thing. kitchen, living room w/ your own washer & dryer, your own bedroom, 3 other roomies, you share a bathroom w/ one.
..but it's another girl and 2 guys. i dont know them, which may be sketchy, im not sure.

we'll have to see.

..hopefully they wont switch me, cuz i like the sound of my own room.



...time to do more bach before this stupid test.
i dont care if i dont do good.
i just i duno.

<3
RIP cooper. <3 <3 <3

okay. so here's my gross self-portrait made of ONLY makeup.

so my stye is pretty much gone.
the swelling and pain is gone, and i dont see the stye
my eyelid is just red, though i did lose a few eyelashes where the stye was.
BOO.

uhm while i had the worse part of my stye and the allergic reaction to the makeup, it hurt so bad that my face was soo white and really bright red in the cheeks and nose n such
and eye sooo puffy and red and crying. so i toook a picture.

last night i did a self portrait of the grossness that was my face, and did the whole thing in just makeup.
specifically only the makeup that gave me the reaction, and the possible stye.

lesse, some cheap eyeshadows, eyeliner liquid, eyeliner pencil, cheap lipsticks, etc etc
(therefore, don't use cheap makeup, and don't overload and not clean it up off your face all the way)
(if you dont, your face will die, DUH).

i really like how it came out. ill try to post it here when i know how to :-P



uhm

oh yeah friday night. i can now confirm that the people on my floor are immature assholes.

so, me and my roommate, we can't help it.
we need to sleep, or we will die.
so people on our floor don't understand that and at 2am they were play their music so loud that our beds and walls shake

loud music and bass all the time

and they get mad when we ask them to turn it down.

so blah blah blah etc etc.

so friday night @ 1:30am there's a loud pounding at my door

and long story short,
our whole door is grafittied in profanity, such as "You guys think you're soo cool. bitches!"
and on our name tags "FUCK YOU!" and a garbage can pushedd up against our door.

seriously, i was really upset, cuz i've never had anyone hate me like this.
and i was alone, cuz my roomie was away for the weekend.

so i called zack, and he came, and was pissed too and got the ra for me
and the ra was like i can write it up, but thats all i can really do.

i was histarical, so i went to zack's and his RA said to call campus safety cuz that was harrassment.

so i did.
and they came.

and that night sucked.

and i couldn't fall asleep until 7am.


therefore, MOST of the people on my floor are complete and total utter immature assholes.

they suck.

so, turns out i have a friggen stye on my left eyelid.

my eyelid is swollen as all hell and hurts soo badly.
also i think it also has developed pink eye...it's pus-ish and red eyed

but it may be the stye..i dunno

i got perscription drops
and have to do hot compress.

hopefully gone by sunday.

which i hope is the case, cuz i look like a monster
and it's hard seeing out of 1 eye (and that eye being my worser eye sight wise) BOO.

...this is an update for the cate.

(though it is a small one)..


...i checked online, and i got a 90 on my bach test! WWEEE...
i studied like a beech on that, so i am decently happy about it.

uh...yesterday we made piece plaster molds for sculpture. and in 5 hours we were only got to do 2 out of 6 piece molds.
and right now, my left eyelid is incredibly swollen and hurts like a beech.

i think i got plaster in my eye.
or makeup.

...or both.
...either way it hurts.

and now im paranoid i have a cyst.

GUH.

oh, and aparently im allergic to covergirl makeup.
i dont even need makeup
i dunno why i wear it.


...now i have had rashes under my eyebrows for the past week.

OWWCHH.


...uhm.
yeah.

time to get ready.

There ya go! <3
mwahs.


oh. pea.esses.


...i am on taco-fix. I always want tacos or taco salads now. they are delicious.

...and nachos!....yum. im addicted.

(and a very bad asian)

so, i forgot to say, i named my car.

Feeny the fit.

...named after Mr. Feeny, of course.





...oh and house tonite....hahaha.

dave matthews make a good *retard* :-P

so. i have a car now.

an orange blaze metallic Honda Fit.

it is cute.
the back seats fold flat to the ground, perfect for all my art shit.
and it is soo perfect for what i need.

now, i must read the manual.

so they adjuster just came to check out my car.

it's a total loss they say *even if it doesn't look like it*

it's getting towed.

no car for kimmy any more.

*CRIES*

so, while trying to get home for the weekend last night
me and zack got hit by a spinning car in front of us.

my car is smashed up pretty good in the front.
im a bit sore, but everyone is okay.

still trying to get things settled.
more updating later.

okay, so im going back to RIT this sunday.
BOO.

back to school and work. DUHR.
i miss my old breaks @ sage (but i will admit, they were a tad L O N G)

...uhm i've been watching AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL all day for the past few days cuz of the marathon on vh1

i can't get enough of that show.

oh and i am totally watching that IM THE ONE THAT I WANT.. grease musical try-out show this sunday

and idol starts next weekish.

WHEE!


...oh, and i know this is bad, but im really excited to make breakfast tomorrow
b/c im gunna make egg + croissant. and that is DELICIOUS.

YUM.

fin.